When I decided to turn my business around one thing I did was pick up journaling. I heard it was one of the things billionaires did so I was like, well, I’ll do it to. It must be something to it. I started writing and really saw no real change in anything. I was just writing aimlessly about my day and my goals and how I hope at some point in life I could achieve it. One day, in a passing conversation, I mentioned to my mother that I was trying to pick up journaling but it wasn’t working. She then asked me what my approach was. I told her it was very random. My mother then advised me that journaling needed to be more of a spiritual thing. She asked me to try having a conversation with God and then see how it goes. I did just that. I begin seriously journaling in 2015 and haven’t stopped. I started journaling in hopes my business would turn around, but I got way more than that. It changed my whole life around. I wanted to share with you a few entries from my journal. It’s extremely personal but I wanted to share it with you to give you an insight into why journaling help me so much.
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Today I read about faith. I seek to understand what faith truly is. Pastor spoke on resurrecting dead situations. He prophetically spoke a world into the next 5 days a situation will resurrect. Was he speaking to me? Was he saying that something would come alive in me. I just read Hebrews 11 on faith. Faith doesn’t work unless you truly believe. So today I ask my truly awesome God, God over everything, leader of my life… I ask you God to bless Shelton and I with a son. I want to bare a son for my husband. I declare on this day that my womb is not dead!
You are amazing. Yesterday I took the test and BAM! I’m pregnant. Faith at work! You God at work! I just want to give you all the honor and all the glory. You God are truly worthy to be praised. I pray for a successful pregnancy. I pray for a healthy kid. Right now I’m just so grateful that you God have chosen me to be a mother!
Uri is gone. I won’t be able to write to her anymore because she is gone. Why God would you take my precious baby from me? Everyone is saying there is a bigger plan and I may not get it now, but I will. Why does everyone want me to look to the future and not what’s happening at the moment I have lost my baby and IT HURTS. I want her back! I want her back. She was mine! She was my feisty little girl and the same day I proclaim that my full trust is in you, you take her away. What God does that! You care? You care about me? You care about Shelt? She died a day before his birthday!
Yesterday I talked to Shelt and he was telling me about a conversation he had with Lafayette. He was telling Shelt that he needed to be specific in his prayers. He needed to say exactly what he wanted and not leave it vague. Honestly I was very specific in my prayer for a child. I prayed to bare a son. I had a daughter. Is that a sign that you weren’t answering my prayers? My issue is how do I know when it’s You and when it’s not. Uri felt like a blessing to me. She was a blessing. I’m confused. I still want a child. I want to bear a child in three months. I want to carry to full term. I want to have a problem free birth and raise my child to adulthood. I ask these things in the name of Jesus.
THANK YOU!!! Yesterday I took a pregnancy test and I’m pregnant. I’m totally beside myself. It’s currently 4:32am and I am sitting here wide awake. I’m so excited.
It’s praise report after praise report this week. I just want to start by saying thank you Lord. Thank you for your many blessings. Thank you for seeing and hearing my prayers. So first, we found out we are having a boy. I knew it. I know what I prayed for. My prayers were specific. I knew exactly, because of my faith in You, that I was going to be bringing a boy in this world. I love him so much already.
I shared those entries with you because journaling has helped me get through some really tough times. It also serves as a reminder of what I’ve been through and how God has covered me the whole time. Cool thing is a have some free starter journals. Click Here to get your free starter journal and start your journey to learn more about yourself and establishing or taking your relationship with God to another level.